Makeup My Way

Today, I'm linking up with Kelly's Korner to talk make-up!!

I have to start with 2 disclaimers.  

1. I'm cheap. 

2.  Convenient is the name of my game!

I've never put a lot of time or money into makeup or pampering goods. $10 was my cap.   I'm the girl that used mascara WAY past the expiration date.  Then my sister moved in with me for a while and I'd occasionally use her makeup.....best/worst mistake!

Suddenly, I realized the fancy stuff from Ulta was kinda amazing.  I was still too cheap to buy it for myself, but after one birthday gift from her, I'm addicted.

So, here's my favorites collection (last 3 product pics borrowed from company websites)

1. Urban Decay Naked Palette - YDK is my favorite color.  The brush is also amazing.

2. Benefit Roller Lash Mascara in black.  It actually gives me the appearance of lashes!

3. Clinique Eye Liner.  I have about 5 colors. They last forever!

4. Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer. Old Holly never knew she needed this.....a sample came with my palette; now I'm hooked.  I don't wear it to work because I'm not sweating, moving, etc., but on weekends, vacations, trips, etc. I haul out the good stuff.

5.  Eye Shadow Crayons.  I'm still on the search for the perfect brand, so suggestions are welcomed.  I just love the convenience....I can apply while doing something else. 

And you can't wear makeup without the perfect remover/cleaner....

6. Cetaphil Cleaner. The only product I've ever found that doesn't leave my skin greasy or dry.  Takes eye make-up off without irritating my contacts too!

So now I have an Ulta account and an expensive makeup addiction.  Thanks Sister ;)

And Then?

A month has passed since I wrote the post about being Stuck.  Guess what?  Nothing has changed. 

Every day I wake up and there's a big fat pink elephant in the room and nobody wants to talk about it.   Sometimes I force the conversations that lead us no where. Some days I request information on adopting/fostering and I leave the package tucked out of sight.  Occasionally, I check savings accounts and do the math around IVF.  I'll even admit some days that I secretly hope that since we've "quit trying" that maybe it will magically happen. 

My gynecologist mentioned she'd keep us in mind if she stumbled across a mother who needed a family for her child.  That gave me hope for a day or two.  Then reality set in.

I. DON'T.  KNOW.  WHAT.  TO.  DO.

I need to rip off the bandaid.  We need to make some decisions.  Can someone, anyone tell us what to do?!?  Do we flip a coin?  There aren't just two options so that won't solve anything.  Maybe rock paper scissors will work?!?  

I Jumped on "The Bachelor" Bus

Call it too much free time.  Call it looking for distractions from the TWW.  Call it whatever, but I crossed over and gave "The Bachelor" a whirl.  And.... I'm hooked. 

Farmer Chris is a cutie and these women are slightly crazy.  Sounds like the perfect way to kill some time. 

My thoughts on the cast:

-I like Whitney,  the fertility nurse, but I might just be biased towards those who help infertile women.  She does seem sweet though and she offered to help inseminate his animals so she gets my vote.

-Britt is the prettiest and definitely deserved her rose.  Kelsey is pretty and stands out too.

-Tracy, the 4th grade teacher, also gets my vote for threatening to be the crazy cat lady if she doesn't find love.

-The Crazy Awards go to Ashley S, Tara and Kaitlyn.  I was super annoyed that he kept them all.  Boy must like train wrecks.

-What in the world was Brittany wearing?  Lingerie never doubles as a dress - Ew.

-Girls dropping the F bomb isn't cute.

So there are my thoughts.  I'm kinda excited for the next episode.....I'm so ashamed lol.

Mind Dump

-Rain rain go away! 

-What happens to the first Duggar child who is infertile? Do they get excommunicated from the family?

-Why isn't it socially acceptable for me to grow a Winter fur like my cats do?

-My husband told me I look like Captain America when I wear knee boots.  Now I have to decide if I wear them and go all super hero and kick his butt for the insult OR if I retire my beloved boots?

-I want to bake some Fall goodies, but I don't need to eat sweets.  The struggle is real folks. (Update: The picture below clearly reveals I lost the battle.)

-I am worried that WHEN I have a daughter, she'll be one of those stubborn little stinkers that refuses to wear hair things/head bands.  Lol yes this is the last worry I should have, but it's my mind dump and I can say it if I want to lol

-I can't get enough smelly stuff in my house!   Every wallflower, Scentsy warmer and candle is pumping out the Fall scents. 

-Biggest Loser is making me regret my cheesefries at dinner. 

-I'm procrastinating on getting my flu shot.  I get a low grade fever and feel crappy afterwards so I put it off as long as possible.  Ouchie needles.

-My water bill is going to be through the roof this month because of my new bath soak.  It smells so good!

-I've put a major dent in Christmas shopping.   If I can't focus on breeding this month, I'm going to stress shop lol. 

-My kiddo's football team is undefeated and their first playoff game is Sunday.  GO LEOPARDS!

10 Things That You Might Not Know About Me

I love these random high school lists.  They fill in nicely when writer's block hits.

1.  I was the Mountaineer Mall Santa Claus. A friend was the manager and needed help, so I took the job!

2.  I got married while barefoot in a church.  I despise shoes so I just boycotted them.

3. My favorite word is idiosyncrasies.  I learned it from my favorite movie,  Good Will Hunting.

4.  I have had one cast in my life.  I ended up in it because I thought I could walk in heels/wedges.

5. I have all female cousins, until you dig into my extended/half relatives. 

6.  I'm extremely visually impaired.  My prescription is over 11 in each eye and my depth perception stinks!

7.  I hate salami, salmon, bleeding meat and sweet potatoes.

8.  I've never seen The Wizard of Oz,  It's A Wonderful Life, Sleeping Beauty or a lot of other classics.

9.  I'm triple jointed.  I can do tricks with my arms that make people cringe.

10.  I hoard garden flags,  Gold Canyon Candles and Pampered Chef gadgets.  Well hoard is a bit excessive...I have a nice collection ;)

There are some of my dirty little secrets. :)

This Crazy Life

There are some major changes in my life that are all blamed on infertility.   They're not exactly PC to throw out in a blog,  but they're weighing on my mind so here they are:

1.  I no longer get anxiety about gyn appointments.  I feel like half the docs in town have seen me from that angle. 

2. Me and the ultrasound wand are BFFs. I'm not talking the little abdominal one they use in all the movies either.

3. I've peed on sticks in so many random places.  Ovulation tests don't wait for home bowl advantage. 

4.  I've become a pill swallowing fool.  Prenatal vitamins,  hormones and whatever else they throw my way.

5.  I've stopped paying attention to calendar days and can much more quickly rattle off my cycle day.  Today might be June 5th, but to me it's Day 10.

6.  I've lost my ability to be a sane person.  Drugs + failed attempts + wasted money = crazy Holly.

I'm sure there are many more,  but that list gives a pretty good idea of the craziness.  Tomorrow will hopefully be the start of a new chapter; a chapter that is crazy in a happier kind of way.....

Ole Faithful

The fact that I am writing a whole blog about this should clearly prove that I need medicated and I’m not quite right.   I am in fact ok with the judging and eye rolling. 

Let me tell you about Ole Faithful…..aka my planner.

I am obsessed with my planner.  It’s clearly one of my favorite things in life and is tangible proof that I am an organized person (read: control freak) and like to clearly have my life planned out (well in advance when possible).

So, I waited too long to hunt down my reliable sidekick.  I blame it on my first year being a married, step-mother in a new house, but honestly, I am just ashamed of myself.  I will never make this mistake again.

Anyway, last year I found my dream planner at Barnes and Noble.  A shameful $20 later and that beauty was mine.  Well imagine my surprise when I went back this year and they had nothing even close to that beauty (obviously I got over the shame of buying an expensive one.)

You see, planners must have the following to meet my needs:

1. Monthly/weekly view with tabs
2. Week spread visible when opened
3. Saturday and Sunday must be side by side.
4. There must be lines and plenty of writing space.
5. Must be a large planner (hello, I’m blindish)
6. Calendar year….Academic year stresses me out
7. No appointment book style/hourly allotments needed.
8. Holidays must be pre-populated.

Well, I tried to order one through work.  After 5 failed item numbers, the dear lady ordered me one that “she thought would work”.  After I started breathing again, I thanked her and set out on my mission to find one in a store again. 

Finally, 4 days into the new year and multiple panic attacks later, I found her…at Wal-Mart for $10 (Who knew they stocked the good planners?!??!).  She isn’t the prettiest little thing from the outside, but she fulfills the must haves list.  Each page has a cute orange and pink chevron pattern so that helped too. 

Plain but acceptable

Please ignore my awful pic skills. 

So, you will be happy to know I am breathing again.  All birthdays, anniversaries, milestones, appointments and bill payment schedules have been written in.  I’ve lovingly leafed through her more times than I am willing to admit (a girl has to have some secrets). 

*sigh of relief*

Monday Confessions

Since it is Monday and I’m too tired to censor myself, I figure I’d try confession.  I like the idea of getting some of the “junk” off my chest.  (No judging)

• I feel accomplished when I finish something….anything.  I’m talking like finishing a tube of toothpaste gives me some weird satisfaction.  You would think that I would realize that it means I have to spend more money to replace it, but instead I feel successful.  There are limitations; I don’t celebrate over toilet paper or paper towels which gives me just the right balance of nutjob vs. normal.
• I love washing clothes.  The sad part of this equation is I hate drying, hanging, folding, and putting away clothes, but if those puppies could just continuously be washed I’d be happy.  I think it is something to do with the soap and fabric softener that smells good and clean. 
• I am obsessed with skim milk.  I could drink a gallon a day if I would let myself.  Just give me a big plastic cup and let me at it.
• I used a mop for the first time in probably 5 years this past weekend.  I have spoiled myself with the luxury of a cleaning lady for too long.  Cracking down on the budget and scrubbing those puppies for a while. 
• I cheated on the aforementioned budget last week.  2 DVDs, some work shirts, new shoes for me and Keith and some new work clothes for Keith were totally necessary, right? RIGHT.
• I am struggling to finish the last steps in decorating our house.  Not sure what the hold up is.  I can’t wait to see the finished product, yet I can’t seem to get to it. 
• I have not given my cats a bath in well over 2 years.  This is shameful.  Right now, I can blame the cold weather and the possible effects on their health, but next spring, it is shower time.

• I am dying to make a turkey onesie with the bows for feathers with a big ole matching hairbow.  I refuse to do so as to not anger the baby making gods (joking) and furthermore to not upset the I want a girl gods (again joking).  Let me tell ya, no matter the time of year, if I get a positive prego test, HELLO MICHAELS.
   

• There is a small ounce of me that considers smothering my husband when he snores.  I love him but sheesh can that bear boy make some noise.

That’s enough for now.  I don’t want people to see my full crazy quite yet.  I do feel better….this is cheap therapy!!