Red Light

Apparently good blood results weren't all we needed for a green light. *sigh*

I went to see the Doc this morning and his first comment was, "So you decided to take a break?"  UM NO!   You told us we had to take a break until my blood results came back.  I still don't know where the miscommunication happened. 

He asked about my cycles during our "break" and he responded that they're too short.  Um they've been like this since I started seeing him.  (I have an Excel spreadsheet, duh!) So then we went into the room with the probe and he mumbled something about my endometrium reports from when I was 13 (um 19 years ago by the same doc who just accidentally didn't notice my UU while she was in there) and then BAM Oh you've got a big cyst on your left ovary.  Yes my good ovary.   (He proceeded to poke it a few times just for good measure.)

I finally got my clothes back and to the conference room we went.   More blood work, no treatments this month, more waiting.  

So I got poked twice.  Cried in the car.   Stopped for breakfast and cried over my chicken while my poor husband looked at me like he's afraid I'm going to totally melt down.   Poor guy. 

So now we wait for blood results from Boston.  Guess Santa isn't bringing us a baby for Christmas.  

This is what chicken therapy looks like lol

Green Light

My blood results are back....... and my blood passed!!!!  The aspirin helped and the doc will now let us go back to TTC.

WOOHOOOOO. 

I decided to check my online chart on Thanksgiving and there the results were.  LA negative!  I'll take that over turkey any ole day :) 

And then I was freaking out that Day 1 would happen while my doc was closed for the holiday, but that hasn't happened either!  Thank you God for answering our prayers!

*Happy dance*

Give Me That 2 Week Wait

Every girl that is trying to have a baby knows the torture of the two week wait (the time between ovulation and pregnancy test).  I've watched those 14 days crawl by and I know how anxious I was.... so imagine that multiplied by 6.  That's right, I'm still trudging through the twelve week wait and I'M LOSING MY MIND!

I've never been so excited for blood work in my life.   I want to get the results and get on with things.  We've got a baby to make!  

I should be halfway this week....I still get reminders of what should have been.  I still get choked up when I see other Mamas who are due in March.

Anyway, we're waiting and waiting some more.  Patience Holly patience.  Sigh.

Follow Up Appointment

I've lost track of the medical junk.   The physical gets overran by the emotional, but here's a brief synopsis.

August 19th: I was having severe stomach pains and pressure.   Calls, walk in clinics, etc. = no real answers.

August 20th:  Horrible appointment with Dr. Jerkface (he was hateful that day).  Given 2 antibiotics after bloodwork.   Told hormone levels were still too high.

August 26th: Follow up appointment.  Repeat bloodwork.  Pain is gone.

August 27th: Thyroid and Prolactin levels fine.

August 29th: Call to say Lupus Anticoagulant (LA) levels are elevated.  Baby aspirin each day for 12 weeks and then retest.

My hormone level is down to 81 and he's hopeful it will be to 0 soon.

If we move forward,  he will prescribe Progesterone suppositories (yippee) during pregnancy too.  

It's definitely heartbreaking to know my blood caused the miscarriage. On the positive side,  most women aren't tested for the LA until after multiple losses so I'm thankful he's proactive.  

Right now, we sit and wait for my period to start and see where the road takes us.  My body is thankful for the rest.