All I Ever Wanted Was To Try Stitch Fix....

Yeah the title is overly dramatic. 

Stitch Fix isn't designed for chunky girls and I have mourned that several times.  And then it happened, a referral from a friend, for a service for plus size ladies. I signed up instantly!  After the excitement passed, I did some homework....and the nervousness set in lol. 

Let's just say, the girls who share pictures from their Dia&Co boxes on a lot of social media sites are a lot more um creative and comfortable than I am.  We're talking crop tops and mini skirts and bling.

So I waited and finally my box arrived.  Oh my.

Pretty package

Let me start by saying, I wrote pants/skirts/dresses must be tall/long at least 3 places on the survey. 

Please also note all photos were taken by an impatient husband and all poses/goofy expressions are a result of my hate for being in front of a camera. 

Item #1
Regular length blue jeans
Pros: Dark wash like I prefer
Cons: Hello floods and a little too flared for my liking.

Item #2
Red wrap top
Pros: Gives me the appearance of a chest.  "Flowy" to hide muffin tops.  3/4 sleeves
Cons: Elastic around the back which does nothing for my back blubber

The flood is coming, the flood is coming.  I refuse to show you the backside view!

Item #3
White blouse
Pros: I was pleasantly surprised by this item.  It looks funny in the picture because of static cling and nothing underneath, but I really liked the piece.
Cons: $69 price tag.  Um hell no. Of course I like the priciest item in the box. 

My pants and a clingy shirt

Item #4
LBD with back cut out
Pros: Longer sleeves; black
Cons: Shapeless and short shorty short

I can't believe I am even posting this one.  The awkward stance is classy!

Item #5
One of the ugliest necklaces I've ever seen
Pros: I got a good laugh
Cons: The list is too long.  GAWDY!  Some rapper is definitely missing his bling!

You know you want one of these for Christmas!!!  And hello pant fuzz!

So tomorrow I'm contacting the company to see if they can give it a better try.  1 out of 5 aren't good odds. 

We'll see how it goes.  If anyone else is feeling brave, here's my referral link: https://www.dia.co/r/19jr

Christmas 2015 (A Brief Recap)

Christmas was crazy but wonderful!

We did our usual...

Lala's house on Christmas Eve.

Christmas Day:  Heidi and Randy came to our place to open gifts.  Mackel's Christmas morning breakfast.  Dad's wife's daughter in law went into labor early so we didn't get to spend time with Dad :( Lala's for lunch and then ended up at home because Keith wasn't feeling well.  I went into casserole making mode.

Day after we got Perry and 15 other family members invaded for food and presents.

After that I spent days recovering!  Holidays are stressful!

It's Time To Get This Party Started

We did our big grocery run and it's time to get serious. 

Shakeology and coffee base is ready.  Overnight oats are chilling.  Turkey chili is simmering. 

I was hoping to make layered salad, but my fridge is too full to hold it. 

Gym bag is packed.  Lunch and water cup will be thrown together tomorrow morning.

Game on!

A New Year

Gotta document my "goals" for 2016

1.  Let's get the major one on the list: Get knocked up.  Come on girly parts...make it happen.

2. Get Operation Get Healthy back on track.  Meal planning, grocery shopping and app tracking back on the agenda.  Gyming is definitely becoming a priority again too!

3.  Being a better friend.  Marriage has made me a horrible friend.  I will get better at sending cards, sending texts and scheduling get togethers.

4.  Spending less time on my phone.  Sorry Samsung Galaxy, it's me, not you....

5.  Eating out less.  Ain't nobody got money for that.

6. Purging junk.  I need to declutter my life.  Where does this stuff come from?

7.  Celebrate more, complain less....this might take a small miracle.

8.  Stop drinking milk.  Milk = joint pain....every time I drink a glass it feels like I've been beat in my joints.  I will finally kick the habit this year.

Gotta stop with an even number (wouldn't possibly want to change my OCD) so that's all for 2016 :)  May it be the best year yet!

What Hope Looks Like

Throughout the last few years, we've always made decisions based on "if we have a baby."  We picked a house with enough bedrooms.  We picked a new car that would accommodate a car seat easily and the payment wouldn't cut into day care costs.  Those are the big things.

Even in the small things, our hope shines through.  I did a little art project last year and I flipped it over today and got yet another reminder.  Maybe the new year will be the year we complete our tree...the year the other ornament gets a name and moved to the front. 

I'll ask again this year, Dear Santa, please bring us a baby. (Shout out to the Tooth Fairy, Easter Bunny, Elf on the Shelf and any other creature that can hook us up too)

Torn Between

This year, I'm torn between being so thankful for all I have and a little sad on what I thought I'd have.  

The little Thanksgiving outfits still haunt me....those ribbon feathers ugh.  A few pregnancy announcements mixed in were just the whipped cream on the pie.

In the mix of it all, I'm blessed. I'm thankful.  I'm trying so hard to focus on the good stuff.

I did find one tiny way to clean out the tear ducts, while hopefully bringing another wanna be mama a smile.   Ice cream is always the answer so I'm treating on the pay it forward board.

Happy Turkey Day!!!

Wordless

I've struggled to write lately.  Partially because of a stressful project at work.  Partially because I don't know what to think, feel or write.  Partially because avoiding my thoughts is therapeutic (I lie to myself).

I can't sleep lately.  4 hours is the name of the game some nights.  If my brain had an off switch, I'd be one happy girl. 

I'm added to Keith's insurance for 2016. I have had some other amazing opportunities that have been huge blessings arise (more on that later).  My cousin recently had a successful transfer and is happily pregnant on her hail mary embryo.  Yet I'm scared....Petrified really.

I'm waiting for one single day where this is easy.  I need one single day when my brain and my heart and my life and our finances and my everything just get their act together. 

I'm still waiting for it to happen "naturally" (hate that word) again.  I'm still convinced it will end in loss. I'm still contemplating kidnapping or running away from home or adopting or more furry kids instead of human.  I'm still telling myself to give up and move on. 

Alright maybe I don't lack words at all....just answers. I lack answers.